Another very busy day. I figure by next Monday the kids should pretty much have settled for whatever they are going to do with their storage situations and probably won't be calling much after that. Things will settle back into a steady good weather pace then. It's looking like right now I will have 5 or 4 (<--- India's way of putting it)to sell off around May 20th or so. I hate to do that but one just simply can't pay and the other three have vanished from the face of the earth.
Of course we have to type of the exciting word on what Ginger ate today:
Progresso Rice and Veggie 2 and 120
Apple Sauce 1 and 50
Pudding 2 60
Oriental Chicken 4 230
Hot Dogs 4 148
Mixed Veggies 4 240
Pudding 2 60
Totals 19 908
Very good day and pretty healthy choices. The dogs are 98% fat and made of turkey...so no fatty floor scrap dogs there. Yeah I ate the whole bag of veggies but with 0 fat and all those nutrients I am not going to feel bad about filling up on veggies. :) Very good day....wasn't as active as I probably should have been and unfortunately I don't think I'll get a walk in tonight. I have promised to do some sewing for tonight.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Just have enough time for a quicky!
Very very busy day and really didn't have a chance to sit down and type anything. Going to stay busy while we are preparing to open the new place. Lot's of new customers and unfortunately because it's the end of the month I have a bunch of move outs too. So lots of cleaning up and sweeping as well. Of course I come in and someone had left some junky ass cabinet laying out in the lot and I had to haul it around. That is one of the many times I wish we had video camera's around there so I could bust who ever did it and call them on it. If they have just moved out, then I can keep the 25.00 security deposit for it.
Todays intake was in a nut shell:
Soup 2 120
Pudding 2 60
Sweet and sour chickent 3 140
apple sauce 1 50
2 turkey burgers 8 320
2 bread 2 140
peas 4 100 probably not but I'm going high because I dont want to dig the package out of the trash
puddin 2 60
Total 24 and 990 calories.
Not a bad day and not counting the yard work I did when I got home, 8683 steps for the short time I had the counter on. Need to work on 10,000 every day.
Nothing much to report. Thursday, Friday and Saturday all have lots of stuff scheduled for the week so I'll be busy.
Todays intake was in a nut shell:
Soup 2 120
Pudding 2 60
Sweet and sour chickent 3 140
apple sauce 1 50
2 turkey burgers 8 320
2 bread 2 140
peas 4 100 probably not but I'm going high because I dont want to dig the package out of the trash
puddin 2 60
Total 24 and 990 calories.
Not a bad day and not counting the yard work I did when I got home, 8683 steps for the short time I had the counter on. Need to work on 10,000 every day.
Nothing much to report. Thursday, Friday and Saturday all have lots of stuff scheduled for the week so I'll be busy.
Monday, April 28, 2008
What a dreary day!
I went from 206.4 to 200.00 today one week later. I am sure a lot of that has to do with water loss too but I have drank enough iced tea to surely make up for some of that.
It's been extremely busy at work and I am glad for that. I wanted to have as many of those units rented out as possible before the other building was complete. I don't have as many students as I might have thought I would get but I guess in a way that's a good thing because they all leave in August and I have to make up for those that leave. I got a ton of calls today asking for prices from the college bunch. Not sure how many of them I will get tmw.
Today food was.....
Progresso points 2 Cals 160
Chicken Oriental WW 4 230
2 Apple Sauce 2 100
GTP Co. Chick Wrap 7 353.3 This is based on reg ranch and I had fat free ranch on mine
Black Bean 3 180
Fruit Cup (didnt finish) 1 91.2
19 1074.5
Still a little higher than I would like on the calories but the WW watcher points are down there where they belong. I won't sweat it too much as long as it keeps working.
Today while I was at Grand Travers Pie Company for dinner, I asked for their nutritional chart. They didn't seem to have one but did have one printed out from a local guys website. He collects all this data and puts it on his site at
He had a ton of stuff on there and all the local restaurants as well. I had a hard time finding anything on the web for GTP CO.
My arm is feeling a ton better after all the work Sat and Sun and by tmw night I will be ready to get out there and get the rest of the seeds in the ground and get the garden area finished up. With a little bit of tending, it should grow quite well. Much of the dirt out there in that garden spot was as black as coal and very rich looking. It should do well.
It's been extremely busy at work and I am glad for that. I wanted to have as many of those units rented out as possible before the other building was complete. I don't have as many students as I might have thought I would get but I guess in a way that's a good thing because they all leave in August and I have to make up for those that leave. I got a ton of calls today asking for prices from the college bunch. Not sure how many of them I will get tmw.
Today food was.....
Progresso points 2 Cals 160
Chicken Oriental WW 4 230
2 Apple Sauce 2 100
GTP Co. Chick Wrap 7 353.3 This is based on reg ranch and I had fat free ranch on mine
Black Bean 3 180
Fruit Cup (didnt finish) 1 91.2
19 1074.5
Still a little higher than I would like on the calories but the WW watcher points are down there where they belong. I won't sweat it too much as long as it keeps working.
Today while I was at Grand Travers Pie Company for dinner, I asked for their nutritional chart. They didn't seem to have one but did have one printed out from a local guys website. He collects all this data and puts it on his site at
He had a ton of stuff on there and all the local restaurants as well. I had a hard time finding anything on the web for GTP CO.
My arm is feeling a ton better after all the work Sat and Sun and by tmw night I will be ready to get out there and get the rest of the seeds in the ground and get the garden area finished up. With a little bit of tending, it should grow quite well. Much of the dirt out there in that garden spot was as black as coal and very rich looking. It should do well.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
The pictures I promised.
First off....here is a shot of my kitty walking along his newly edged sidewalk...the very sad thing is ...once we cleared off the side walk out front of the house it was obvious how bad of shape it was in. Last year the city came around and marked and replaced all the side walks that it thought were in bad shape. They thought mine were fine apparently and very few people actually got their's replaced on my street. Mostly the ones right off the main street was done. I guess for looks.
Look at all those breaks in the concrete! I replaced my "personal walk" but I think the city should do the ones that everyone uses.
Here is the old gate and fence that was in front of my garden area. It was constantly falling down and actually had two saw horses holding it up and the dogs were constantly getting past the fence/gate. Obviously, not doing it's job anymore. It was long past time to replace it.
After it was removed Dan began work on a new fence.
Working right along...
and the final results. This is one solid gate and the hardware is nice and sturdy this time. I am glad we didn't try to salvage the old ones.
While Dan worked on the new fence and gate. I got to work on this area.
and worked on getting these in the ground.
and here they are getting watered.
As you can see I only got a couple of things done that I wanted to do. I will keep working on the list every night until I get caught up. I have an outing on Monday night. Thursday night at the radio station and Friday night will be a Club meeting night and the Indiana QSO Party/Bison Stampede too on Saturday.
Hopefully, I'll survive it all.
Look at all those breaks in the concrete! I replaced my "personal walk" but I think the city should do the ones that everyone uses.
Here is the old gate and fence that was in front of my garden area. It was constantly falling down and actually had two saw horses holding it up and the dogs were constantly getting past the fence/gate. Obviously, not doing it's job anymore. It was long past time to replace it.
After it was removed Dan began work on a new fence.
Working right along...
and the final results. This is one solid gate and the hardware is nice and sturdy this time. I am glad we didn't try to salvage the old ones.
While Dan worked on the new fence and gate. I got to work on this area.
and worked on getting these in the ground.
and here they are getting watered.
As you can see I only got a couple of things done that I wanted to do. I will keep working on the list every night until I get caught up. I have an outing on Monday night. Thursday night at the radio station and Friday night will be a Club meeting night and the Indiana QSO Party/Bison Stampede too on Saturday.
Hopefully, I'll survive it all.
I am just too dang tired!
I have a ton of pictures of the stuff I'm doing around here right now but I am too tired to pull them off the computer and upload them. I just don't want to mess with them right now. I held a shovel,pick fork,broom,spade etc etc far too much this weekend and even my upper arms are hurting.
Today was a heavy calorie day:
Shredded Wheat 2 160
Milk 1 45
toast w/preserves 1 70
2 turkey burgers 8 320
salad dressing 2 50
apple sauce 1 50
pudding 2 60
2 bread 2 140
broccolli WW meal 4 220
chicken breast 2 60
Total 23 1175
I have worked like a dog though and I am not going to worry about it too awful much.
I have tons of pictures of the work and projects that are going on right now around here but will end up posting them twm. Today I am just too tired.
Today was a heavy calorie day:
Shredded Wheat 2 160
Milk 1 45
toast w/preserves 1 70
2 turkey burgers 8 320
salad dressing 2 50
apple sauce 1 50
pudding 2 60
2 bread 2 140
broccolli WW meal 4 220
chicken breast 2 60
Total 23 1175
I have worked like a dog though and I am not going to worry about it too awful much.
I have tons of pictures of the work and projects that are going on right now around here but will end up posting them twm. Today I am just too tired.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Busy, busy day.
Work was relatively quiet. Got in a few payments that were WAY past due and that was great. I got one rental while I was there and later when I got home, we ran an errand, came home and got dinner in the crock pot and the phone rang. It was someone wanting to rent and although we had been closed for a few hours at that point, I ran back to work and rented a unit to them. I didn't mind. For one they probably wouldn't have gotten anyone else to answer the phone and secondly that brings me down to only having 3 left. WOOOT!
After that I came home and started working on my yard. I began working on the side walks out front. Clearing all the grass out of the cracks and cleaning them up and hadn't gotten very far with it was time to grab a bit to eat. While doing that my brother and his wife and daughter came over to visit and drop off some shirts they wanted embroidered. Well after visiting for a little bit, I excused myself because I had a ton of stuff I wanted to get done or as much of it as possible. My brother and his wife come outside and start helping me. Pretty soon Joe (my brother) runs home and gets his power washer and leaf blower and before too long, my yard looked like a professional crew had come in and worked over the yard. It was fantastic. They worked just as hard if not harder than me. I ended up getting the sidewalks all cleared, blown off and then power washed. The flower beds were completely weeded and are prepped for bulbs and flowers. Then Joey rakes everything up and we put away all the tools etc and go in for a nice glass of ice tea. In the meantime, Dan is in the backyard building me a new fence and gate for the front of my garden area that is just gorgeous. He wouldn't let me pay him back for the supplies either. 80 bucks just to build that 10 foot section with gate. Everything is coming together very nicely.
Todays food count: (I know how exciting)
Progresso Soup 2 120
Piece of toast
with rasb.perserves 1 70
Chicken Oriento 4 230
Pudding 2 60
Apple Sauce 1 50
2 Dogs w Buns 4 224
Lemon Lime chicken 3 156
Totals 17 910
NOT bad at all and I felt like I'd eaten like a pig but really I didn't do bad at all. Super busy day as far as exercise. I am so sore right now and so tired, I could just drop. I hope that when I get up in the morning my hands and my arm won't hurt near as much as it does right now. I am thinking that the heating pad on my shoulder tonight while I'm sleeping....might not be a bad idea if I want it to be lose enough to work some more tmw. I have a ton more things I'd really like to accomplish tmw.
I am going to start using my pedometer at work and make myself get in my 10,000 steps or darn close to it each day. It's a little tough when it's raining out but most days it will be fine. If I keep up like I am doing right now...Monday should be a good weigh day. :)
After that I came home and started working on my yard. I began working on the side walks out front. Clearing all the grass out of the cracks and cleaning them up and hadn't gotten very far with it was time to grab a bit to eat. While doing that my brother and his wife and daughter came over to visit and drop off some shirts they wanted embroidered. Well after visiting for a little bit, I excused myself because I had a ton of stuff I wanted to get done or as much of it as possible. My brother and his wife come outside and start helping me. Pretty soon Joe (my brother) runs home and gets his power washer and leaf blower and before too long, my yard looked like a professional crew had come in and worked over the yard. It was fantastic. They worked just as hard if not harder than me. I ended up getting the sidewalks all cleared, blown off and then power washed. The flower beds were completely weeded and are prepped for bulbs and flowers. Then Joey rakes everything up and we put away all the tools etc and go in for a nice glass of ice tea. In the meantime, Dan is in the backyard building me a new fence and gate for the front of my garden area that is just gorgeous. He wouldn't let me pay him back for the supplies either. 80 bucks just to build that 10 foot section with gate. Everything is coming together very nicely.
Todays food count: (I know how exciting)
Progresso Soup 2 120
Piece of toast
with rasb.perserves 1 70
Chicken Oriento 4 230
Pudding 2 60
Apple Sauce 1 50
2 Dogs w Buns 4 224
Lemon Lime chicken 3 156
Totals 17 910
NOT bad at all and I felt like I'd eaten like a pig but really I didn't do bad at all. Super busy day as far as exercise. I am so sore right now and so tired, I could just drop. I hope that when I get up in the morning my hands and my arm won't hurt near as much as it does right now. I am thinking that the heating pad on my shoulder tonight while I'm sleeping....might not be a bad idea if I want it to be lose enough to work some more tmw. I have a ton more things I'd really like to accomplish tmw.
I am going to start using my pedometer at work and make myself get in my 10,000 steps or darn close to it each day. It's a little tough when it's raining out but most days it will be fine. If I keep up like I am doing right now...Monday should be a good weigh day. :)
I'm still here
Did really well yesterday. I need to look something up on the subway menu but here's the day as far as food is concerned:
Progresso 2 120
Apple Sauce 1 50
BBQ Chicken 5 240
Apple Sauce 1 50
Pudding 2 60
6" sweetonion
chicken 7 370
Sun chips 3 140
Totals 21 1030
Okay a little high on the calories probably due to the sandwich mostly but I appear to be down to 201.8 as of this morning. So I believe that from a few days ago and 206.4 Im heading in the right direction anyway. I can't believe Im actually typing that weight for all to see. When I was married I wouldn't even dream of letting him know what my weight was. It was bad enough that he could see me and judge me I wasn't going to give him any ammo.
My crazy neighbor here at work has not yet contacted me again so I think that all is quiet for the time being.
Today I plan to go get some garden plants for the garden area. Tomatoes, cucumbers, zuccinni and some peppers for sure to start with. I don't have a huge area but it would really be nice to have a few fresh veggies through mid summer and fall. I need to sit down here in a moment and figure up the bills and make sure I budget myself. I need to buy supplies also to build a new gate to keep the dogs out. It's really cooled off outside today from near or a little over 80 yesterday to 48 right now. If nothing else it will make working outside not so hot and muggy. I still have that huge pile of mulch to clean up too. It's a little damp right now but should dry out quickly. We had some storms come through last night but the wind and lightening were much worse than the rain. No hail and very little rain...just tons of electrical activity and wind.
Progresso 2 120
Apple Sauce 1 50
BBQ Chicken 5 240
Apple Sauce 1 50
Pudding 2 60
6" sweetonion
chicken 7 370
Sun chips 3 140
Totals 21 1030
Okay a little high on the calories probably due to the sandwich mostly but I appear to be down to 201.8 as of this morning. So I believe that from a few days ago and 206.4 Im heading in the right direction anyway. I can't believe Im actually typing that weight for all to see. When I was married I wouldn't even dream of letting him know what my weight was. It was bad enough that he could see me and judge me I wasn't going to give him any ammo.
My crazy neighbor here at work has not yet contacted me again so I think that all is quiet for the time being.
Today I plan to go get some garden plants for the garden area. Tomatoes, cucumbers, zuccinni and some peppers for sure to start with. I don't have a huge area but it would really be nice to have a few fresh veggies through mid summer and fall. I need to sit down here in a moment and figure up the bills and make sure I budget myself. I need to buy supplies also to build a new gate to keep the dogs out. It's really cooled off outside today from near or a little over 80 yesterday to 48 right now. If nothing else it will make working outside not so hot and muggy. I still have that huge pile of mulch to clean up too. It's a little damp right now but should dry out quickly. We had some storms come through last night but the wind and lightening were much worse than the rain. No hail and very little rain...just tons of electrical activity and wind.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Interesting Day - 204.4 from 206.4 water probably
Tonight we are going out to the radio station. We always go out to eat afterwards. I plan to have a salad or nothing at all and try to eat before we leave the hosue. I am figuring on perhaps cooking a couple of dogs (turkey 2 point jobbies) on the grill before I leave and then a salad with fat free dressing to top it off. Should work out okay.
So todays food intake will be.... showing quanity in () then WW points then calories
Progress Soup 2 120
Apple Sauce 1 50
Turkey Meal 5 240
Ice cream (2) 6 300
5 baked lay chips 1 40
Salad Dressing 0 60
2 turkey dogs 2 74
totals 17 884
Should be an over all pretty good day. Okay 2 icecreams were a bit much but they were Skinny Cow and really good :)
Today I got a call from a person that lives near by the facility who proceeded to tell me they had heard some banging sounds outside and were pretty sure, "Because I've seen enough episodes of CSI and COPS" to know that there might be a person locked in one of the units facing their house and is being help captive and are trying to escape. Well noone from that side of the building were even in today and when I went out to listen...apparently who ever was in there decided they liked it there now and didn't want to be let out (ie they were being very quiet) or they just didn't exist at all except in the head of the very disturbed man next door. He proceeded to tell me not to really trust anything the other neighbor says because he "drinks quiet a bit, but that's neither here nor there." NO SHIT you are nuttier than a fruit cake yourself there buddy and just how is that better or more reliable than the drunk? OH MY! What an interesting day it has been. Oh by the way...I switched lines and went over to talk to the boss on the other line and the man proceeded to walk on over and talk to me in person. My friend Jim says I was too close to the gate and he could have grabbed me but it is always best to keep a position/stance of dominance and not act all meek and scared. Jim was out there with him for a while and he even called Jim a liar when he told him I was on the phone with the boss and would come out in a bit....he didn't get mouthy with me and I was able to defuse the hieghtened hysteria he had worked himself into and get him to hush and go back home relatively quickly. Assuring him that I would keep my eye out for any suspicious behavior. :) Wowser!
So todays food intake will be.... showing quanity in () then WW points then calories
Progress Soup 2 120
Apple Sauce 1 50
Turkey Meal 5 240
Ice cream (2) 6 300
5 baked lay chips 1 40
Salad Dressing 0 60
2 turkey dogs 2 74
totals 17 884
Should be an over all pretty good day. Okay 2 icecreams were a bit much but they were Skinny Cow and really good :)
Today I got a call from a person that lives near by the facility who proceeded to tell me they had heard some banging sounds outside and were pretty sure, "Because I've seen enough episodes of CSI and COPS" to know that there might be a person locked in one of the units facing their house and is being help captive and are trying to escape. Well noone from that side of the building were even in today and when I went out to listen...apparently who ever was in there decided they liked it there now and didn't want to be let out (ie they were being very quiet) or they just didn't exist at all except in the head of the very disturbed man next door. He proceeded to tell me not to really trust anything the other neighbor says because he "drinks quiet a bit, but that's neither here nor there." NO SHIT you are nuttier than a fruit cake yourself there buddy and just how is that better or more reliable than the drunk? OH MY! What an interesting day it has been. Oh by the way...I switched lines and went over to talk to the boss on the other line and the man proceeded to walk on over and talk to me in person. My friend Jim says I was too close to the gate and he could have grabbed me but it is always best to keep a position/stance of dominance and not act all meek and scared. Jim was out there with him for a while and he even called Jim a liar when he told him I was on the phone with the boss and would come out in a bit....he didn't get mouthy with me and I was able to defuse the hieghtened hysteria he had worked himself into and get him to hush and go back home relatively quickly. Assuring him that I would keep my eye out for any suspicious behavior. :) Wowser!
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Okay...what I ate today
Well it was a bit more than I wanted to:
Points Calories
Progresso Lite 2 120
WW Tortilla Chick 10 480
Pudding 2 60
Granola Bars (2) 4 220
Turkey Burger (2) 8 320
plain Total 26 1200
Okay that was a little heavy on the calories. I'll have to cut back on a couple of items. Like I could have easily done without the second Granola Bar and the Jello sugar free pudding and that would have brought it to under 1000 calories for the day.
I'll work on it tmw. ♥☻♥☻♥
Points Calories
Progresso Lite 2 120
WW Tortilla Chick 10 480
Pudding 2 60
Granola Bars (2) 4 220
Turkey Burger (2) 8 320
plain Total 26 1200
Okay that was a little heavy on the calories. I'll have to cut back on a couple of items. Like I could have easily done without the second Granola Bar and the Jello sugar free pudding and that would have brought it to under 1000 calories for the day.
I'll work on it tmw. ♥☻♥☻♥
Day 1 ☺
I woke this morning with my head hurting...I am sneezing like crazy, so I can assume it is allergies. I'm here at work with a nice cup of coffee (my first for the morning) and I took two Alleve in hopes that Ill be fine in a bit. I plan to take it easy for a bit anyway and not go out and start weeding or working with the planters. I have perhaps 20 pages of Stephen Kings Insomnia left to go. The plan was then to read something a bit lighter but right now I have way too many good deep books that I want to get into. This is my favorite time of year to read. I love to sit outside and read.
I'll post first thing before I got to bed or first thing the next morning as to what I consumed. I have a ton of the Progresso soups which are too high in sodium but I'm going to finish them off all the same. Lunch will be from the Apple Bee's WW menu. I have been using Altern (Splenda off brand name) in my iced tea and it's great. You can't tell its not sugar because it is made from sugar but your body doesn't recognize it's moleculiar make up and thus doesn't process it. 0 calories.
My big downfall is not during the day. Breakfast and lunch go along without a hitch. I have what I brought and thats it. I don't keep food stockpiled around so I'm fine. It's when I get home and I am tired or don't feel like making something or what I have to make is not healthy but fast and easy. I need to utilize that slow cooker!
We went out last night and cleaned out the garden area. It was a good 4 or 5 contractor bags full! Dan said he didn't think that there it could look that good back there and in such a short time. Just Sunday it was PILED with brush and all kinds of crap that the dogs had drug in there. Now it's very neat and clean and ready to be tilled under. Gotta get those plants out soon. ♥
I'll post first thing before I got to bed or first thing the next morning as to what I consumed. I have a ton of the Progresso soups which are too high in sodium but I'm going to finish them off all the same. Lunch will be from the Apple Bee's WW menu. I have been using Altern (Splenda off brand name) in my iced tea and it's great. You can't tell its not sugar because it is made from sugar but your body doesn't recognize it's moleculiar make up and thus doesn't process it. 0 calories.
My big downfall is not during the day. Breakfast and lunch go along without a hitch. I have what I brought and thats it. I don't keep food stockpiled around so I'm fine. It's when I get home and I am tired or don't feel like making something or what I have to make is not healthy but fast and easy. I need to utilize that slow cooker!
We went out last night and cleaned out the garden area. It was a good 4 or 5 contractor bags full! Dan said he didn't think that there it could look that good back there and in such a short time. Just Sunday it was PILED with brush and all kinds of crap that the dogs had drug in there. Now it's very neat and clean and ready to be tilled under. Gotta get those plants out soon. ♥
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Fat
I went out yesterday to buy a couple of t-shirts for the summer. I always like to have a few to switch in between for the summer and those full length three way mirrors are hell. I looked like a big ball with arms sticking out the sides.
About a year ago I weighed 42 pounds less than I do now. I went through a divorce, and a couple of surgeries and began dating a nice guy named Dan. A combination of having been on a diet (Weight Wathers 23 or less points a day depending on what my weight was at the time) consisting of about 900 calories. Not much. No wonder I was able to lose 50 pounds in just 7 months or so. It showed alot in my face but it came off of course all around. I got quite a few compliments too. I threw out all my really huge clothes which must have been worn a few pounds heavier than when I started the WW program. One of the reasons I think I might have started WW was due to my lack of self esteem. I had a husband that liked to let me know that I pretty much grossed him out and was no longer worthy. He told me that the reason he viewed porn on the internet day in and day out was because I had packed on pound after pound after pound. I decided I didn't want to be disgusting any more. Not for his sake or any other man for that matter actually...just for me. I was tired of being that fat.
I kinda let up a little on the diet during two different MINOR surgeries that I had during that time and during that time removed the person that thought so little of me from the household. I suddenly had WAY less stress in my life. I kinda kicked back and began enjoying myself. One social event after another, now that no one was around to ask me when "exactly" I was going to be home and make me feel bad that I had a life outside the house. I also began dating a man who LOVES to eat. Every outing with him is an event and occasion to celebrate with food. :) Lots and lots of fun but MAN it wrecks hell with a diet. Now since my body had become adjusted to eating about 600-900 calories a day....when I began to eat even 1500 (what would have been a normal amount or there abouts) I packed the weight on as quick as you can imagine.
I have restarted this diet just about every single week for the past year. I can't seem to stick to it for more than a few days. I am happy with my life and apparently hitting rock bottom and being so down on myself and disgusted with myself really helped to motivate me the first time around.
I am currently grasping at straws I think. Attempting to find something that will motivate me into losing it. I know there are a million health reasons that I need to do it. I don't want to wait until I have a heart attack or stroke to have my health motivate me. Right now I am up to a whopping 206! At only 5 ft tall what a porkprincess. I look more like a weeble right now than a person. Going to Dayton and walking around all day long is going to be tough carrying around all this weight. It will feel like Ive got a huge back pack on. I just need to get myself into a routine and stay with it.
I think that I am going to keep my food diary as I have including any indiscretions I might have and post them here as well. I wasn't paying a bit of attention to the calories and just going with the points which worked but it was amazing recently when I started paying attention to it....I was consuming a very very very low number of calories a day. Of course my body after about 7 months of that thought I was starving to death and just wasn't very efficient at burning calories.
I now have a recumbent bike that I should be riding each and every chance I get...and if I can't get that done there is NO excuse for me not to get out and walk every day. I really need to get myself motivated!!! I will begin to post each day and see if accountability helps. Of course when you go to WW classes (13 bucks a week and about an hour and a half a week of your time, being in front of everyone, even though noone see's what you weigh and or how much you have or haven't lost...my competive nature made me want to be one that lost 5 or more pounds as often as I could so that I felt I was accomplishing something. I DON'T want to go back. For two reasons, I don't want to pay for what I KNOW I could do myself if I could just find my nitch...and also because hell I gained the weight back and I'll be darned if I'm going to put myself on display for it. I guess I'm a little to vain for that. I know its wrong and unhealthy but I so wish I was 6 weeks out of stomach surgery right now and doing okay with it.
By the way....here is me...now big and fat. Arms sticking out at my sides and looking generally nasty.
Here is me a year ago....yeah I got my hair cut and it's not straightened today...but here I am. What a difference a year made.
How depressing.
About a year ago I weighed 42 pounds less than I do now. I went through a divorce, and a couple of surgeries and began dating a nice guy named Dan. A combination of having been on a diet (Weight Wathers 23 or less points a day depending on what my weight was at the time) consisting of about 900 calories. Not much. No wonder I was able to lose 50 pounds in just 7 months or so. It showed alot in my face but it came off of course all around. I got quite a few compliments too. I threw out all my really huge clothes which must have been worn a few pounds heavier than when I started the WW program. One of the reasons I think I might have started WW was due to my lack of self esteem. I had a husband that liked to let me know that I pretty much grossed him out and was no longer worthy. He told me that the reason he viewed porn on the internet day in and day out was because I had packed on pound after pound after pound. I decided I didn't want to be disgusting any more. Not for his sake or any other man for that matter actually...just for me. I was tired of being that fat.
I kinda let up a little on the diet during two different MINOR surgeries that I had during that time and during that time removed the person that thought so little of me from the household. I suddenly had WAY less stress in my life. I kinda kicked back and began enjoying myself. One social event after another, now that no one was around to ask me when "exactly" I was going to be home and make me feel bad that I had a life outside the house. I also began dating a man who LOVES to eat. Every outing with him is an event and occasion to celebrate with food. :) Lots and lots of fun but MAN it wrecks hell with a diet. Now since my body had become adjusted to eating about 600-900 calories a day....when I began to eat even 1500 (what would have been a normal amount or there abouts) I packed the weight on as quick as you can imagine.
I have restarted this diet just about every single week for the past year. I can't seem to stick to it for more than a few days. I am happy with my life and apparently hitting rock bottom and being so down on myself and disgusted with myself really helped to motivate me the first time around.
I am currently grasping at straws I think. Attempting to find something that will motivate me into losing it. I know there are a million health reasons that I need to do it. I don't want to wait until I have a heart attack or stroke to have my health motivate me. Right now I am up to a whopping 206! At only 5 ft tall what a porkprincess. I look more like a weeble right now than a person. Going to Dayton and walking around all day long is going to be tough carrying around all this weight. It will feel like Ive got a huge back pack on. I just need to get myself into a routine and stay with it.
I think that I am going to keep my food diary as I have including any indiscretions I might have and post them here as well. I wasn't paying a bit of attention to the calories and just going with the points which worked but it was amazing recently when I started paying attention to it....I was consuming a very very very low number of calories a day. Of course my body after about 7 months of that thought I was starving to death and just wasn't very efficient at burning calories.
I now have a recumbent bike that I should be riding each and every chance I get...and if I can't get that done there is NO excuse for me not to get out and walk every day. I really need to get myself motivated!!! I will begin to post each day and see if accountability helps. Of course when you go to WW classes (13 bucks a week and about an hour and a half a week of your time, being in front of everyone, even though noone see's what you weigh and or how much you have or haven't lost...my competive nature made me want to be one that lost 5 or more pounds as often as I could so that I felt I was accomplishing something. I DON'T want to go back. For two reasons, I don't want to pay for what I KNOW I could do myself if I could just find my nitch...and also because hell I gained the weight back and I'll be darned if I'm going to put myself on display for it. I guess I'm a little to vain for that. I know its wrong and unhealthy but I so wish I was 6 weeks out of stomach surgery right now and doing okay with it.
By the way....here is me...now big and fat. Arms sticking out at my sides and looking generally nasty.
Here is me a year ago....yeah I got my hair cut and it's not straightened today...but here I am. What a difference a year made.
How depressing.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Okay I have a few more things.
Today we created a huge pile of mulch in the yard. My friend Roy was over with his chipper and we must have run and entire tree through that thing. It was neat but time consuming and noisy. We needed to chop a bunch of a tree off that was shading our garden area. I haven't been able to have a garden there because of it. I still need to clean the area out where the actual garden goes....meaning raking it out and smoothing it and tilling it. I still need to rake up all the chippings and put them in bags. I will take pictures of my garden as it comes along....I might even take a picture of the mess before I rake and clean it out.
When I walked into the house yesterday, my little one had been playing with her littlest pet shop toys and had two of them on a skate board. It was totally innocent in her eyes but I laughed my head off. I HAD to take a picture.
I went out caching with my friend Marvin and introduced him to using a gps. He did really well. I was able to get three new ones that I didn't have, so it was a double bonus. I think he really enjoyed himself.
Is this cannibalism?
I always get all kinds of comments and compliments on my car seats. I have seat covers with frogs sitting on top and lilly pad embroidery with dragon flies on the butt part. They are very neat and I've not seen them again since I got them. My girls bought them for me several years ago.
Lastly, I took a picture of my youngest daughter and her sister thought it would be funny to act spooky and get in the picture in the background. Little did she know just how spooky it would turn out. It looked like something out of The Grudge or The Messenger. :)
Okay thats it for now. I'll write more later.
When I walked into the house yesterday, my little one had been playing with her littlest pet shop toys and had two of them on a skate board. It was totally innocent in her eyes but I laughed my head off. I HAD to take a picture.
I went out caching with my friend Marvin and introduced him to using a gps. He did really well. I was able to get three new ones that I didn't have, so it was a double bonus. I think he really enjoyed himself.
Is this cannibalism?
I always get all kinds of comments and compliments on my car seats. I have seat covers with frogs sitting on top and lilly pad embroidery with dragon flies on the butt part. They are very neat and I've not seen them again since I got them. My girls bought them for me several years ago.
Lastly, I took a picture of my youngest daughter and her sister thought it would be funny to act spooky and get in the picture in the background. Little did she know just how spooky it would turn out. It looked like something out of The Grudge or The Messenger. :)
Okay thats it for now. I'll write more later.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
How hard can it be to keep a blog....
Apparently, pretty hard. I keep forgetting to log in. I save all kinds of pictures and items to post and then eventually tuck them away into a folder off the desktop so it doesn't become so cluttered.
Here in less than an hour I am going to go Geocaching with my friend Marvin. I have loaned him a GPS but no manual or anything so we will be going out basically to learn how to use the GPS I loaned him. I have suggested he purchase this particular brand of GPS so it would be nice for him to have a chance to try it out. It rained last night. I was going to go out to Dobbs park but now we will go to Calvary and Woodlawn cemeteries instead. I'll write more late on how that went.
I am having my last cup of coffee for the morning and the only draw back to that is that I will need to pee like crazy now. :( Hopefully I can get all that out of my system too.
There was a particuliarly funny Dilbert this week and my poor friend Jim was basically saying he can relate to it. :(
I found a picture on the internet while I was browsing around. It was a small thumbnail off to the side of a graphics side I was searching on. I started laughing and it cracked me up over and over again. I went to show it to one of my older daughters and she was "Oh yeah that....seen it a million times." and here I was thinking I was going to show her something new and funny.
However, my all time favorite will always be.....
I have had that hanging on the wall in my computer room off and on for years.
I will be coming into my busy time both at work and socially here starting the first of May. Lots of meetings and activities to attend and on top of that work will get busier over the next two weeks and then even back out about the second or third week of May.
I now officially only have 9 units left 10 x 10 or larger. The rest of them are the small ones and college kids will come and go from those but no one really stays in them for long.
I guess I better go pee now and about thee more times in the next twenty minutes to keep from having to do it the moment I get out caching. :)
Here in less than an hour I am going to go Geocaching with my friend Marvin. I have loaned him a GPS but no manual or anything so we will be going out basically to learn how to use the GPS I loaned him. I have suggested he purchase this particular brand of GPS so it would be nice for him to have a chance to try it out. It rained last night. I was going to go out to Dobbs park but now we will go to Calvary and Woodlawn cemeteries instead. I'll write more late on how that went.
I am having my last cup of coffee for the morning and the only draw back to that is that I will need to pee like crazy now. :( Hopefully I can get all that out of my system too.
There was a particuliarly funny Dilbert this week and my poor friend Jim was basically saying he can relate to it. :(
I found a picture on the internet while I was browsing around. It was a small thumbnail off to the side of a graphics side I was searching on. I started laughing and it cracked me up over and over again. I went to show it to one of my older daughters and she was "Oh yeah that....seen it a million times." and here I was thinking I was going to show her something new and funny.
However, my all time favorite will always be.....
I have had that hanging on the wall in my computer room off and on for years.
I will be coming into my busy time both at work and socially here starting the first of May. Lots of meetings and activities to attend and on top of that work will get busier over the next two weeks and then even back out about the second or third week of May.
I now officially only have 9 units left 10 x 10 or larger. The rest of them are the small ones and college kids will come and go from those but no one really stays in them for long.
I guess I better go pee now and about thee more times in the next twenty minutes to keep from having to do it the moment I get out caching. :)
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