Still no word on the camera.

I guess they haven't even sent the camera in yet. I hate this waiting game. I'd like to know how much I going to be reamed for.

Today was a kind of a quiet day at work. Lots of phone calls from people with excuses wbhy they couldn't bring in the full payment. Other's had excuses why they couldn't pay at all and others that I just didn't hear from at all and their stuff is going to be on the line for auction if they don't contact me soon. :/

Still had a rough day with the panic attacks. Sure wish I knew what had brought these on in the first place and wish I could rewind. It might not have been just one thing but I do know they are hanging around a bit too long. I have found that the one closest to me is getting impatient with my not being strong and okay. That doesn't actually help...ads to the pile of things that are causing the attacks in the first place when I know that I am making someone sad, uncomforable, pissed etc etc. I can't wait until this passes.

I am playing Scrabble right now and will probably kick the persons butt that I am playing against. I almost always win against him. Not that he doesn't give it a good shot.

My friend Jerry brought over about 20 pounds of beef attached to some ribs and I cut them up and froze them tonight. I was able to get about 14 nice steaks out of it. A decent thickness as well and 7 ribs with tons of meat on them. Those will be so good BBQ'd up. Here is a picture of the bags of steaks in the fridge.

Those steaks on the right are three packages deep...one over to the left with just two in it and the package in the back left corner of this picture is some fat that I trimmed away that I thought the logs might like cooked up for them. :)

Thank you Jerry! We will enjoy them. India LOVES steak by the way and when we go to Ryan's she will make an entire meal of steaks.